Everything's still a blur.
I don't dare.
As much as I have been very tempted to.
You said you would choose music.
This is one feeling that I hate. To expect and be dismayed.
To wish and be disappointed.
But why? Why the hell am I affected?
Can I not care anymore?
I want to give up.
But can I?
It has been a while. And yet.
It seems that nothing has changed.
I still am as confused as ever. The feeling of wanting to but not daring to.
There's just to much to take into account.
The wants. The needs. The circumstances. The joy. The pain.
The risk.
I'm stuck.
Why must it be?
That I go for something that I told myself not to go for.
Why must it be?
That I put in too much too early. When I told myself not to.
Why it must be?
That I can't bring myself out of all these shit that I am putting myself into.
Why do I keep doing things.
Is it because.
Do I really?
Sigh.
This gotta turn out to something good.
I love it when you call.
I love it when you call.
I love it when you call.
But you never call at all.
Why is everyone leaving? =X
But wait.